Poems and Prayers

My World

2011-10-17T09:33:00.000-07:00

The one who asks will never receive
But he who lives possesses all
What I sought after never did I enjoy
But what I fled from never left my tail

Beauty, love and truth are always fleeting
What is true in my life is the freedom of death
The absenting of love that once was
And the influx of pain and fear

It is an illusion that childhood is fleeting
We still are helpless but decide to forget
Walking as a mortal among others
We forget that we are all learners

When I dared to follow the footsteps of my fathers
Selling my soul to the power of education
Value was always measured and presented
My value being the pain of nothingness

An outlaw in my own tribe and country
As the generations past sneered at my defeat
More power over this broken body
Awakens the memory of death and freedom

The question of life is the question of death
Pain and the death of the soul brings us nigh unto it
When the dark knight bent for a drink
His ally helped him into the river of blood

Such is the story of my life with the mortals
Every moment I seek the immortal and forget the moment
Every god did I trust and destroy
And every moment of ungodliness was a lie

In the midst of the cruel desert of scorpions
Lived the young Persian mystic
When the camel died and the sand grew heavy
Life and love knew their mortality

Such is the fate of the bold son of man
Languishing in the face of intense power
Finding his soul amidst cruel injustice
And carving his life among the generations of the earth

His face then look unto a grand opening
The promise of incommensurable peace opened his heart
Not from man or the gods but from humiliation itself
The lack that the world is founded on is pleasant

I still seek as I grow weary in this wilderness
Wise mystics moved among me and never cease calling me
Foolish tempters crave my company as the days go by
Torn between every promise I live my life

What then is the value of my being?
Let death be the judge of that in the words of the living
My heart is open to the undefinable worth of being
And may my wars be holy and just

Rowan Moses for Kim Jung Min (AKA David Kim)

He wanted a story about my life but I have no story but I just wanted to share my experience in the form of poetry....

In the body of the Lord

2011-09-07T08:11:00.000-07:00

He contains infinity beyond comprehension
The logic of life and its infinity in its transcendence
Life and death is absorbed into his mystery
The mystery of godliness is the mystery of intense humility
To suffer and die as an insignificant sinner
The stone which the builders rejected is indeed the cornerstone of immortality.

Pardon

2011-08-21T00:18:00.000-07:00

If I open my lips O Lord
I commit a crime against thee
Sweet Shepard of Eternity guide me
Forgive me for grieving thee

Thou has made me as such
Kneeing is not a part of my making
But I seek to know thee and worship thee
Thou has created everything for thyself
Thou has created me for thee
Make me thine O Lord I beseech thee
Pardon and grace for my soul I plead
Worthy art thou O Lord !!

The Song of Glory

2011-06-25T11:39:00.000-07:00

Let the children of life rejoice
For every battle ahead is won!
For Christ is risen from the dead!
Oh what joy and glory now ahead!

For whom does this hope belong?
Not for the wise or the noble
But for the hopeless and the fool
Jacob was but a dirty worm!

Rejoice again o ye Children
Behold the Crucified Lord
In his death he conquered
The powers of the world and that to come!

Look upon those demonic powers!
How their offspring multiplies!
But no the Messiah has conquered!
And has brought us new life

Oh the glorious resurrection
For the Crucified is indeed Lord!
For he will come and wipe every tear
Even thine O hopeless won

Worry not O ye loser
Does the world beat your countenance down?
Look upon thine crucified brother
And take refuge in him forever

Behold the world that is to come
In the glory of the lamb's victory
And yes this world and its rulers
Is now my Lord's forever!

The fire beyond

2010-12-14T03:12:00.000-08:00

That which exists burns like fire
The fuel being the fading essences
The fire burns in the cosmic alter
And there bellows smoke and light
The light burns with the power of being
And the fuel the death of the timeless one
Ages have past for a divine priest
To mediate the burning bush
A burning reality that does not consume itself
That which is beyond essence
That which exist but does not
That which does not exist but does
That which is emptiness but is not
That which is fullness but is not
Devoid of essence, devoid of reality
The voidness of the voidness
The darkness of the dark
That which is not truth nor falsehood
The sacred name that cannot be uttered
That which is bound and yet free
That which flows into the ashes of nothingness
To beget the divine Phoenix
The essence of reality is born
That which is exhausted but cannot be exhausted
The pristine love that exists.

The tears and the cross

2010-09-08T17:55:00.000-07:00

Lord look down from heaven and see
Pain, miser and unchastity
Sin and guilt torment me my God
And will never leave me
But thou O Lord are my strength and righteousness
They Cross has conquered the world
None can escape they abundant love
And though my being writhe in pain
I will always love and have faith
Faith that you love me and faith that none can conquer the cross.

Save me

2010-08-23T05:38:00.000-07:00

I look upon the Crucified one to save me from myself
Save me from my wicked thoughts and lusts
Save me from my fragile mortality
Save me from self indulgence
Save me from despair and vain hope
Save me from deceitful passions
Save me from my past and my social constructs
Save me from my present state of trouble
Save me from myself O my God

Help me not to seek thee as an unknown
Nor seek thee for my pleasure's sake
Nor seek thee for salvation
Help me to seek thee in hell

O Lord my crucified God
Help me to love thee and thee alone
Let my soul be united to thee
Help me embrace thy shame and helplessness
Help me to love thee and thee on the cross alone

My sweet Jesus

2010-05-04T00:27:00.000-07:00

When darkness slays me
And misery and death overtake me
When insanity engulfs me
And pride overwhelms me
Oh the sweet arms of Jesus hold me
His nail pierced hands sustains me
His blood brings life to me
And his love will never go cold
As I wait for eternity to see his face

I love you my Lord Jesus

My Lord and my God

Prayer to the Uncreated

2010-03-05T19:03:00.001-08:00

Almighty Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit

We worship you Most Holy Trinity in humble prostrate
You O Lord are Uncreated, mysterious and yet have revealed yourself to us
You dwell above and beyond all thrones and creatures
Your glory so magnificent that the sun will turn its head in shame at your presence
Transcendental, eternal and almighty are you most Holy and Blessed Trinity
Forgive me this filthy creature for defiling your holy energies and your good creation

Almighty Father through whom all things coma we worship you with our faces to the dust
Holy Son of God we worship you with love and you O Lord are full of mercy and you make your dwelling among us because it pleases the Father
O Lord Holy Spirit, the life of the Trinity, the embodiment of divine Love, Our Lord the giver of life you proceed from the Father and the Son and reveal the Love to us sinners.

We pray in the name of Jesus Christ the Son of God

Amen

Conformity

2010-02-08T04:41:00.000-08:00

Life would be bliss had he not intervened
I would move from pleasure to pleasure
Form self-gratification to fulfillment
But he came to save me from myself
The pain he brought upon my being!!!
LEAVE ME ALONE I CRIED!!!!!!
Who am I that you should test me so much?
What did I do to deserve your torment?
Am I not an ordinary man bound to decay?
Why do you test me?
Why do you terrify me?
Why do you hang me over Hades and make me cling for dear life?
Did you create me to toy with me?
Remember the days of old when I tormented the lifeless figures formed by human hands?
Did you O Almighty one form me for the same purpose?
Deceiving me in every step of my life
There is a dread within when these thoughts torment me
I cling to your Holiness, your sanctity and your mercy
My love for you might make me hostile to you
My Sin within might make me lose hope and run away
But thou O Lord are not bound by such constraints
May my soul cling to you if I face the terror of Hell
I cannot live without you
Even in my pain I keep you above all my affections
I cry unto you at all times
Although it seems like you never harken unto me
I know that I am deceived to believe that your uncreated refining fire is the fire of hell
For if it were the fire of hell I would have dissolved into conscious nothingness
But I live, I still have a spark of hope and this O Lord is a testimony to your faithfulness.

Oh Mother of divine mystries

2009-11-08T06:57:00.000-08:00

Oh Holy mother of divinity, holiness and sanctity
Purity in your thoughts, humility of mind and calmness divine
Oh Lord did thy mysteries evolve from thy bosom so divine
The blast of purity, a person so humble and a being so divine
Truth and grace, love eternal, joy divine and consciousness unfathomable
Generated eternally, generating the spirit divine and untold holy power
Sages knew thee not, no mind can comprehend thee and no heart can love thee
For the heart loves only that which it can understand
Oh Lord we try, we wallow in foolishness for thy grace
Roll on the mire, starve our senses, scourge ourselves, live with cloistered halls
But we failed O divine Love, we failed to love thee
O Lord when we thought the sages knew thee, they became our stumbling block
We tore thy beard, spat on thy divine countenance and slaughtered thy being
If thou were not immortal we would have engulfed thee
Such is the wickedness within
We define you and love thee as an idol within our minds
Thou art unknowable yet ever present in our lives and our soul
In heaven thou has prepared for us our mediator
On earth has thou blessed us with a spark of divinity in our love for one another
Master, mother, helper, lover we beseech thee to give us the mystical gift
A gift treasured above all gift, the gift to love thee and yet not know thee
A gift so divine that if thou wert in out midst as a servant we would still love thee
The divine gift that thou gave the Holy Mother, to love the vulnerable Christ
Thou didst purge her of original sin without the gift of sacraments
Give us that gift, the love that St Joseph had for thee
To protect the little Lord, nourish him in his cradle
Love divine will you be mine?
Oh joy untold open your door
Oh truth divine possess my mind
Oh my soul love the Lord
Oh my soul love the weak and the poor
There does the love of Christ make herself known
She is the spirit of the divine.

The fear of the self

2009-10-01T12:29:00.000-07:00

Stricken in grief am I
A dark dense revelation dawns upon me
When I met Jekyll the demon within me
Great was his dark power
Great was his might
Great was his intellect
Great was his wrath
Great was his strength
That my soul was thus wounded
My mind was dismayed
My heart feared
My soul tormented
My hands inflicting pain upon my body
My body rolling in the dirt
Lustful thoughts overwhelmed me
Deceitful pursuits overcame me
Loneliness was never far away
Tears flowed freely
Pain took hold of me
Iniquity beset me
The Almighty was so far away
Jekyll was luring me
To a place where I could never abide
But such was his call
Full of confidence and majesty
Full of vain glory
Full of desire
Full of death
I cried unto the Lord to deliver me
But he was never with me
He abandoned me and left me to his mercy
I cried to Jekyll
I pleaded before his ruthless presence
He looked with scorn and majesty
I sank to the ground
And called out to the Lord
But he never came
He let me fall
I tore my hair in desperation
I beat my chest with anger
I loathed myself
O what a being am I that the almighty should abandon me
O I am the most disgusting, vile thing to ever thread upon the face of the earth
I cried and I cried but nobody wiped away my tears
How can I tell anybody my plight?
It is worse than any man ever faced in this world
I fled the presence of Jekyll
But his smirk told me that he would return
More violently than ever
My heart is now dismayed
My fear is great
My hope is lost
Nobody will deliver me
Not even the loving God
For he loves only those who live pure
Not those who harbor Jekyll
I do not harbor Jekyll
He is my foe
A foul fiend
But yet he is within me
Ever tormenting me with grief
He crushes my hope everyday
He manipulates my life
He has gained ground
Jekyll is indeed mighty
He is indeed the destroyer of my soul
He is indeed armed to the teeth
With a sword made of diamonds
And with the power of an ox
And here am I
With a tin shield
And a penknife
How can I withstand this mighty foe
He strikes my shield
And is ready to pierce my heart
I surrender Jekyll
I have nothing left
Spare me I cry
He only smirks and tells me
"I do not seek to kill you I only seek to put the Lord to shame"
And you were sore defeated
And this is my victory against the almighty
I hung my head in shame
And fell down and could never rise up
Will I ever rise up again
Oh I put my God to shame
Woe is me, may my days be filled with curses
May my life rot and waste away
May I never have an inheritance
May Hell me my home forever
O But such is the love of the father
That he would never let me go
Such is the love of the son
That he will destroy Jekyll forever
Such is the Holy Spirit
That she will be my guide forever
Such is the depth of the love of my sweet Lord
That he will never let the shame overwhelm me
All the shame that I have
Is nailed to the cross of my Lord
And he bore it and overcame it
Now I say to you mighty Jekyll
"Bring on thy furious wrath, you may win a battle but my Lord has won the war"
You are defeated forever
When mine eyes shall behold that day, I will mock you to scorn
And I will triumph over your foul carcass
For it is not my victory but the victory of the Son of God
And he has chosen me to be his forever
What can separate me from the love of God in Christ Jesus?
Not even your vile O Jekyll
He spared not his only son on the cross
How much is his love
The Son who lovingly died and shed his blood
How much is this love
The spirit who testifies of this love
Is the power of his love
And who can defeat the breath of the almighty?
Who can defeat the power that is generated by the almighty?
Love conquers all
Love is of God
And with this he conquers all and establishes his reign forever.
Amen.

The Lord's Song

2009-09-16T10:50:00.000-07:00

All of creation sways to the immortal rhythm
That beautiful song called the Holy Spirit
Sung in unison by the father and the son
Professing their immortal love, that binds them together
The song the son sang in the incarnation
On the cross and the resurrection
The melody inherited by the church
The music that moves the pain of the world
The fulfilled promise of the Holy Spirit
Our God who inspires us and illuminates our life
And thy song O Lord will never end
All of creation sway to the rhythm
But little do they know the origin of the song
For it contains no audible sound
But it is the inaudible song of love
Precious, immortal, unconditional love
Love O Love, my Lord you are love
You dwell is the fullness of live
Thy divinity is love, there is no injustice in you
Illuminate us with thy love
Then we may give, love and help
With only evil as the immediate reward
But sway, dance and feel the rhythm of thy love
Thy bliss is the bliss of Love oh Lord
And this bliss thou hast made it the inheritance
Of Sinners such as I
Blessed be thy holy name forever Lord
Glory be to you forever and ever
Help me to die in love.

Love of my heart

2009-09-15T09:44:00.000-07:00

My soul dies in unrest my Lord
For my faith groans to become substance
And is destroyed my your awesome presence
An only sight remains
You are the only true light Lord
The mystery that defeated darkness
Before the world was created
You overcome hate and deceit
By the power of love and truth
You overflow with love and truth lord
But your wrath is revealed against death
You created me a man O Lord
To be filled with your divine Son
O Lord my words are but a waste
But my soul is true and these are mere echos of my longing
How long will I live in darkness?
How long will I be defeated?
How long will I suffer?
As long as I die of thirst for you Lord
My love, my life, my desire, my beginning and my end
Search me, destroy my darkness and fill me with your light
So that I might lose myself only to find you
My love, my treasure, my Lord, my redeemer
I worship, prostrate, weep and tear my hair
I can never run away from you
Love of my life, life of my life, power of my breath
Beautiful savior, only true God
Sweet bread of life, a strong intoxicating drink
That nourishes me and turns me into laughter
Unquenchable drink, everlasting fountain of life
Love forever Lord, love you forever.

O Sacret love of the Wounded heart

2009-08-13T03:29:00.000-07:00

Oh Lord of Love and Grace
In thine heart waits the father's love to explode
In thine eyes are tears as the tears of one who is in want
In want of love from thy bride but what you behold is shallow lust
For desires of the flesh and the will not thy wonderful face
They do not thirst for thee or thy love
O Lord my father help me for Christ's sake
Open thou mine eyes to see the sacred wounds
Scars that will be visible for eternity
To mark the indestructible love of my Lord
Blood that heals with the power of love
Water that washes away my sin and my lust
O Lord thou has revealed to me the secret of thy delayed coming
It is for thy longing to be saturated
So that when deprived countable beholds our face
Thou would greet us with warm embrace
And utterly destroy the elements thy hide thy face

O love indestructible explode in me
Make me blind to the ways of the world
Cleanse me and clean me, O omnipotent master
Let me forget the scriptures and the gifts thereof
But let me concentrate my life on thy sacred love
The love of the father and the Son exploding in the hearts of saints
Through the power of thy Holy Spirit
So that when mine eyes behold thy countenance
Let streams of tears that cannot be quenched flow out forever
Oh Lord let thy love quicken my love the love that I lost
So that when in pain and sorrow this life I lead
Let me remember that thou would die for me forever
If thou were not immortal

Victory to the Sacred Cross of Christ!
Victory to his sacred wounds!
May thy sovereign reign last forever in the midst of man

Amen

Lord of the Lord's army

2009-04-12T20:09:00.001-07:00

O mighty Lord of the Lord's Army
Seated at his right hand above all powers
Thou didst rise up against evil and triumph
Thou living word of the eternal God
Thou God from God, holiness from holiness
Exalted and glorified art thou my Lord

Thou didst fight and triumph
Not with means of evil but purity
Thou didst empty yourself to become the son of man
Made yourself a servant with no reputation
Dwelt within thy creation
Thou creator and the world knew thee not

O Lord mighty are you are mighty are your ways
Thou art the savior before creation
Thy sacrifice made humanity whole
Thy victory is the victory of mankind
O lord and you come to me and love me
May your name be blessed above all names forever

O Lord eternal father and everlasting God
Thou are holy beyond compare seated on the throne above all thrones
Everything prostrates at your glorious presence
Thy presence is glorious and fearful
And no creature can stand in your mighty presence
And thou hast made me your son to dwell with you forever.

An unworthy wretch

2009-03-18T19:52:00.000-07:00

O Lord I am not worthy to partake
Of even the air I breathe
I am not worthy of even the knowledge of the divine
I am not worthy to partake of your blood

I am just a sinful and undeserving wretch
I am not worthy t even imagine you Lord
I am nothing but dust and will remain a beast
Till your son descends from heaven above

O Lord you are worthy and will be worthy forever
Your grace and your Godly passion crushes the serpant's head
Evil rules no more but thy son will reign forever
None can challenge your sovereignty Lord.

If thou has willed to love me before the foundation of the Earth
What am I to question your love, I can only submit to it
O'Lord humbly do I prostrate at your feet and worship you
Knowing that I cannot be holy by works but only by grace.

The precious blood of Christ will never lose its power
Its purity is divine and his sacrifice is a sweet aroma
No evil and filth can stand in its presence
I am the bride of Christ and in him do I have salvation forever.

AMEN!!!!

Stop Draining me

2009-03-11T01:24:00.000-07:00

Strong legs and brisk feet had I
Foes before me were vanquished by another force
Till the day I crossed the swamp
Leeches did into by veins did creep
And drained the energy I possessed
A boast did I make that I live for others
But lusts and selfishness overwhelmed me
Things that I boasted in forsook me
The Almighty's hand let me fall
Into the depths of hell where I belong
I have been rewarded for my ways
Yet he is the bulwark of the hypocrites
Who dwell within his fold
He feeds them everyday to blaspheme his name
But he has forsaken a helpless creature such as I
He has tormented me beyond my ability
Smote me when I pleaded for a drop of water
Destroyed the comfort around me
He loathes the very sight of my presence
Men use me like unto a filthy napkin
And throw me back to hell
Till the day I can serve no more
Then will they use my remains as manure
To fuel their quest for luxury and sin
Guilt engulfs my very essence
But no man feels guilty of disposing me
I wish that my life were short and insignificant
And that I would reside in dust forever

The Everlasting Mercies Of God

2009-02-19T17:06:00.000-08:00

O Lord ripe for destruction was I
From the day I was born into this world
I was carved in iniquity
Every inch of my body was lustful
I blasphemed your holy name
My spiritual corpse stank in your presence
You withheld your righteous anger only because of mercy
Abundance of grace flowed like an everlasting river from your being
Nothing could quench it because you are the origin
This is because your righteous wrath was satisfied
When you sent your only begotten son
Who emptied himself and became flesh
And was sacrificed for my filthy sin
O Lord I was like unto a filthy cur in your presence
But because of your goodness and Mercy
You took it upon yourself to save me
And make me holy in thy perfect presence
You became sin for me O Lord God
And all my imperfections were nailed on the cross
You did not withold your wrath on your son O Lord
So that I may not perish but partake of eternal life
O Lord a thousand praises will not suffice
Everything I do is inadequate to please you
For I have no righteousness in me that I should boast of
There is no goodness in me that I chose you
Only mercy and grace alone saved me Lord
And you sent your Holy Spirit to draw me to you
Then you rewarded this undeserving wretch with eternal life
You quickened my spiritual death
And now my eyes of faith are open
Now O Lord is my heart not hostile to thee anymore
My lips cease their blasphemy and shout praises instead
Because the sacrifice of the Lamb is perfect
And no sin can negate its power
For the blood of Christ is holier and no sin can defile it
O Lord I can only worship you in awe
For you are Holy, Holy, Holy Lord
And you are the reigning king. Amen

The perfect Church

2009-02-14T22:54:00.001-08:00

The bride of Christ for eternity
The mystery revealed in the last days
Born in this world but not of it
The body of Christ purchased by his blood
In one holy communion with him
The perfected church seated at the right hand of the father
In heavenly places with Christ Jesus
Christ is the head of the church
And the one who began this work will be faithful for eternity
O Lord come back quickly to perfect thy church.

The Holy Spirit of God

2009-02-14T22:47:00.000-08:00

O Lord the one who sustains the universe
The spirit of the Holy God who dwells within man
Perfect and omnipresent master who seeks the heart of man
A loving comforter of the elect
The Lord who perfects the church and leads us to the father
The eternal spirit of the allmighty God
Beautiful guide and the reveler of Christ
Wonderful God who turns our heart of stone into a heart of flesh
We bless thee forever and ever

Amen

The Wilderness Journey

2009-02-14T22:35:00.000-08:00

Not by thy power and thy will but my spirit saith the Lord
It was not my will to leave Egypt
For I loved the lashes of the taskmasters
When I cried in anguish and tore my head in pain
The Lord renewed his covenant with Israel
The faith and the obedience of Jesus was precious in his sight
He savored the sweet sacrifice of the cross and delivered Israel
With a strong hand and an outstretched arm
He delivered Israel from the wrath of the pharaoh
But the heat of the wilderness and the desert tribes
Did war with us, thy sweet manna was now bitter
Thy loving hand was like unto a taskmaster's whip
We chided with you O Lord and with thy servants
Thy wrath against us is justified
And when thou judgest thou art surely justified
But we only see a well pleased smile of the father
Because he rejoices in the sacrifice of Christ my savior
And has poured forth his wrath on the lamb without any blemish
We bless you God for you are not a man.

Prayer against lies

2009-02-03T22:55:00.000-08:00

O Lord look down from heaven and behold
Thy name blasphemed and rejected
Men love money and lusts and hate thy divine name
They are lovers of dust and vanity is in their lips
They hate you but love unnecessay traditions
There is none that seeks you mighty Lord
None thy seeks thy mighty name
Few are thy children and so few are the lovers of life
They take pleasure in mocking you and loving death
They rejoice in destroying the weak and lowly
O Lord when will thou descend and destroy this vanity
Make haste Lord for thy name's sake.

The Son Of God

2009-02-02T22:35:00.000-08:00

Eternally begotten in the bosom of the father
Who possessed thee from the beginning of his way
And through him were all things created
Did the will of the father always
Was loved and cherished by the father
And for his pleasure was the universe created
The Word did reveal God to the world
And through him was God made known unto man
Before the universe began He is
God did will that the Son of God should be the son of man
So he emptied himself and dwelt in the being of Christ Jesus
He did the utimate will of the father
And became a filthy curse for the Sin of mankind
Yet with his everlasting obedience he purchased salvation for us
And he was raised by the father and is now seated above the universe
In the right hand of the father above all the systems of mankind
The mighty God who dwells beyond infinity thus made him Lord over all creation
When the Son returns he shall make all things new.

The Vultures Of Doom

2009-01-28T21:02:00.000-08:00

The journey of a human infant begins
At the claws of wretched vultures
Who nurtured and nourished him till
A strong man he became
He loved these vultures more than anything
And feasted upon the rotten carcasses they delivered
He joined them in their evil song
Another day dawns but with a vision of captivity
Te young man flees but to the claws of other winged scavengers
They led him to a desert and circled above his being
In anticipation that he would soon die
But the man only grew more resolved
The former vultures spot his misery
they descended upon him and gorged his eyes and feasted upon it
Then the two mighty clans of scavengers waged a war for the young man carcass
He then stumbled into a cave where a ravenous beast dwelt
And as the beast sunk its claws into his flesh
He cried unto the lover of mankind
And lo he came in clouds descending
All the beasts and birds did then disintergrate
And offered unto the son of man a drink of living waters
His parched throat was quenched forever
And his son he did forever make.

From Love to Love

2009-01-24T20:17:00.000-08:00

Thy voice O Majestic Lord
Is beyond this creature's comprehension
Thy love for man is unfathomable
Thy mercies and thy grace is beyond our senses

O how the wicked loathe thee mighty Lord
How the mighty boast of their strength
But thou hast redeemed the weak and the wicked
And have poured your word into their hearts

Thy love to this dead creature is matchless
Thy beauty is beyond comprehension
Thy love is everlasting and beyond time
But you have not hid thy face from man

We are dead Lord, our being is dead to you
But you have struggled with flesh to give us life
Thou has poured out your word into Christ Jesus
And through him we are made wonderful

In all this I know that thou art not a man
Thou art beautiful and sovereign beyond dimensions
No more can we resist your wonderful grace Lord
No more can we turn away from you

False Assumptions and Self deceit

2009-01-22T18:53:00.001-08:00

Assumptions vain people do make
On the life and destiny of the unknown
The foolish eyes of a carnal man
Is oblivious to an invisible kingdom
"Come unto me all those who labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest"
When curse is passed as a blessing we are eternally blessed
The father loves his children
And he shall never put them to shame

Many a vain man has cursed me
The only reason is that God is exalted
A silent worker for his kingdom am I
Life in my veins only seek to please him
My brothers know my toil and my sister takes pride in it
But the eyes of a carnal man
Is truly blind to this

Man calls the tangible, work
And produces goods to prove this
Heaven and Earth shall pass away
But the kingdom of God is eternal
All the toil of man shall return to dust
But when the Lord shall reward his own
I will never be ashamed

The soul

2009-01-19T18:52:00.000-08:00

Stricken with the disease of self-holiness
We have resisted the goodwill of the almighty
A clenched fist always against thy wonderful face
And exalt the name of the beastly fallen man

We considered you the enemy of mankind
And Lucifer the fallen Hero
Our flesh was one with the will of the devil
We were deceived that our minds were free

You opened the heavens to us
But we strove to defeat your eternal love
Always embracing the ways of the carnal flesh
And crucifying the love poured forth from the heavens

Why didst thou choose us, we don't know
Why didst thou die for us we cannot comprehend
Why do you love your weak enemies sweet king
Tis a mystery the cherubs long to comprehend

O love eternal in vain can we resist you
O joy divine thou wast mine from the beginning of the Lord devine
My heart cannot contain thy love eternal God
My lips shall praise thee for eternity

Thou put faith in my heart
And in my inward parts thou has made me to know thy son
It was not I who chose thee lovely lord
It was thy sweet amazing grace

Holy, holy, holy are you Lord God
Who dwells in unapproachable light
Why didst thou make the dwelling of the son of man thine own
My mind cannot comprehend this mystery

My organs try in vain to contain thy love
Thou redeemed me from the lust of the intellect
And brought me to a lovely land
Overflowing with the river of God

Why did you not erase sinful man?
Why didst thou open heaven to filth?
Why did thou send thy son into man?
It is grace beyond comprehension let no man try and understand

Why didst thou not send us to hell sweet savior
And create a godly race
We hid ourselves from thy divine presence O Light divine
But thou sought us out to be thine own

In vain we hid ourselves from thy sight
But thou has tested our lusts with fire
And has shamed us only to exalt us
We are thine and thine for evermore

Behold the Lord cometh to redeem his own
Let the world tremble under his own
To justly redeem his treasure
And adorn it forevermore.

Why

T'was The Burden Of The Lord

2009-01-15T21:08:00.000-08:00

It was the burden of the lord
That was cast on my flesh from the heavens above
To work for a world without hierarchy
To this did my mind lead me.

The evil one did lead me astray
To lead me to conceive a morally dominated world
Under the laws and grace of man
But God did smite my mind with his word

When the son cometh he gives life in abundance
The burdens of my heart and my mind were rolled away
T'was the vision my dear one did give me
Of Life eternal and pure within the being of the father

Almighty God without human attributes
Pure and free art thou
Mercy and grace did you pour onto this world
But thou didst punish the pure with death

But thy holy anger lasts but for a moment
Thy mercies are new every morning
Thou didst make the least among us the greatest in your kingdom
And made him Lord above all names in this world

Thou art the creator, the merciful keeper and the destroyer of evil
Thou art the father of the new creation in Christ Jesus
We pray lord that thy third eye bring forth the end of death and create a new life
For you are the Lord of all and to you be all the glory forever and ever. Amen

My Instinct

2009-01-10T22:17:00.000-08:00

To seek pleasure and vice
All the comfort of the world would not suffice
To quench the bottomless thirst
But the drink of the universe I waste not

Every drop of knowledge I seek to drink
On every mountain I place my banner
My mark is found on every beast
But what I cannot tame I seek to destroy

I pretend to seek salvation
And in the process bring about destruction
I invoke peace and love
Only to make bigger war

When truth appears before me
That beautiful chaste virgin
I turn a blind eye
And waste my death upon a harlot

When a strong hand delivers me
I seek to destroy it with my cotton swab
I seek to gorge the eyes of the living water
And drink the fire in the burning bush

But love so divine engulfs my heart
And my soul turns to seek life
To shun the waters that parches the truth
And seek the drink that satisfies.

Renaissance of the Mind

2009-01-08T23:10:00.000-08:00

Poverty within the being of evil
A dark stain in the creature’s mind
Evil temptations cannot be cut asunder
No fights to be fought, no battles to be won

Misery without any bounds
Pain without suffering
The hottest fire is but a cold touch
No fights to be fought, no battles to be won

Chorus

Great curse, great curse who hath begotten thee
Great lie great lie where is thy misery?
The Universe is neither an avenger nor the earth a lawgiver
Who will punish the fruits of thy iniquity?

Control the tides of nature’s fury
Destined to rule and for immortality
To slaughter the earth’s treasure
To fight with the sword and conquer with blood

The land teems with love
But hatred rules over all
To destroy the hope of the hopeless
No fights to be fought, no battles to be won

Chorus

Great curse, great curse who hath begotten thee
Great lie great lie where is thy misery?
The Universe is neither an avenger nor the earth a lawgiver
Who will punish the fruits of thy iniquity?

Weeping, crying and gnashing of teeth
Vengeance riding in an iron steed
To cut men hiding behind leaves
To defile women with noble deeds
Blood, plague and drought does haunt the precious one
The salt is crushed under the hooves of the Stallion
But it cannot lose its savor
Darkness rules the universe
They seek formlessness and void
Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
No fights to be fought, no battles to be won

We cry to the heavens above
And call upon truth, knowledge and eternal bliss
The reality of absolute life and truth
No fights to be fought, no battles to be won

Chorus

Great curse, great curse who hath begotten thee
Great lie great lie where is thy misery?
The Universe is neither an avenger nor the earth a lawgiver
Who will punish the fruits of thy iniquity?

The Song of the Oppressed

2009-01-08T23:07:00.000-08:00

Signs from the heavens show no respite
The love of God is upon us
Is it a sin to be one of us?
Look beyond the walls and see
The fair ones who live in luxury
The World has blessed them in abundance
To reveal to them his knowledge
Sacred gods are at their command
Fire and wind obey their demand
But who is on our side, who is on our side
We cried tears of blood for a thousand years
Our mothers tore their heads when we were born
They only beat us to prepare us
For the greater misery to come
Come and behold the countenance of our women
They are ravished when exposed to the street
They are prevented from covering their shame
Their heads are also shaved
They lack nourishment and so do our infants
Our men hath not the might to carry the sword
Only to scavenge the dung of man and beast

When we die, the vultures consume or flesh
The high and mighty have no regard
Even their oxen and the monkeys are revered
Rats have their milk and honey
We have only our death to celebrate
This is the greatest gift The World has bestowed upon us
We have no regard for the luxury its children enjoy
We have no need for its scriptures
But we still offer sacrifices at the gate of the temples
Our only petition is for a shorter life

When we asked a mystic sage for deliverance
He said that some are born lions others lambs
God has made you to be dust to remind you of your former sins
One day you will become lions who consume the lambs and trample upon the dust
We will resist, we will sink to the bottom Karma and blasphemous shall we forever be

Let The World Tremble

2009-01-08T23:06:00.000-08:00

Let the world tremble under your feet O Sacred one
Let the universe prostrate at your demand
Let man and beast be consumed in the presence of thy holiness
Let dimensions disintegrate at thy sacred wrath.

Filth and poison is the universe
Yet you sustain it mighty YHWH
Wonderful is thy mighty name Holy Lord
Let the universe prostrate
Let the demons decay at thy name
Let the praise of the angels multiply
Let evil men lay in waste
Let the names of mighty men forever be erased

May you descend O Lord
So that your chosen ones with you ascend.

Let My Heart Bleed

2008-09-27T12:06:00.000-07:00

All my life I labored towards happiness and pleasure
Narrow is the way to pleasure and broad is the way to destruction said some men
I sowed in tears to reap in joy, I ate the bread to sorrow to feast upon the King's table
All my life O Lord all my life I tried but my heart bleeds
I see traces of the blood as I look towards the past
All that remains are scarlet stains upon the ground
I look upon it and I begin to tear
As the first drops fall upon the dry remains
It begins to regain its former glory
I start to run Oh but the power it has over me
Makes me earn to look, my eyes behold my brutal past but my soul beckons me to flee
I cannot and lo I behold the shadow of a teenage boy fighting to end his life
I turn away from its presence and more tears rush to my eyes
And I behold another drop coming to life, in this I see a young man going astray and even filthy canines beckon him to leave the path that even puts them to shame.
I then look at my present state, as I look at the fresh drops of blood my tears magnify its glory
I look into it and I see a young man living free in pursuit towards the knowledge that this world can offer.
What is greater than knowledge my mind enquires? Is it not more valuable than gold and silver?
Is it not better to seek knowledge than to seek the cares and riches of this world?
I still look upon the swollen drop of blood, wondering why my life bleeds when I pursue something fit for a king.
This makes me tear even more, my teardrops magnify the suffering as I kneel to the allmighty and beckon him to end my suffering.
Then a muscular figure in the dark advances and drags me reluctantly towards the forbidden path of the future and the path which he leads me is towards knowledge.
My tears begin to dry for I knew that whosoever sows in tears will reap in joy, but to my horror I beheld giant drops of blood surrounding me and I was engulfed by one.
I enter the presence of an aged man, I see that he is surrounded by knowledge at its glory, books and books and my eyes enlighten as I open one but a grave presence forbids me to do so
It is not wise he said to pursue the ways of the world
I looked at the stranger and it was me, a man of forty who seemed like a one nearing his end
I began to tear but he wiped it away and I asked him " Why art thou in this state? When did you reap what was sown? Did I not sow knowledge? Is it not more precious than silver or gold? Where is the love of my life? Do you have children to light up your day?"
I failed not to sow but I failed to reap, I sow today that I might reap someday but the day I reap will never appear for I am bound to die in a year, I sowed the knowledge of the world and now I reap its wages eternal death, had I sought the master of this life I would have reaped in joy for he cannot be compared to silver or gold, the love of your life lies in the arms of another for she loved you but like her brother, as for children I have none for that was the sacrifice of my life, as for love I thought that it was just a selfish pursuit to failure.
But I am happy that I will one day end this agony fade away and will only face the eternal one.

Then I awoke from my dream and cried that night and vowed to meself that I would regard eternal wisdom above all the knowledge in this world.

A Tribute To John Bunyan

2008-09-17T11:46:00.000-07:00

I saw you in my dream
You sat in green pastures with your pen and parchment
Churning out wisdom and truth as you beheld them
Your fingers strive to pen the divine
In the foolish language of even the Queen.

I saw you tear your hair
As you sat down there to unmask God's mysteries
You did not give up hope despite the paralysis of your mind
You took upon yourself to save man from deception
But what is thy fate my father, evil hath marked thee for destruction.

I saw as they took you to prison
Apparently for no reason but for speaking God's truth
As your neighbors mourned with agony at their fate
You accomplished something you could not in your freedom
You revealed to us the mysteries as our dear Lord did.

I saw the ink blot your parchment
As Christian sprung into being
You created him with the power of your letter
You breathed into his nostrils the breath of quest
And in his heart thou didst light the fire of hope.

I saw you strive in your short and violent life
They tried to take away your freedom by limiting your flesh
But your soul was always as free as the freedom that you inherited
I saw you soar although they taught you were constrained
I saw you smile as I read your lines.

The Battering Ram

2008-08-11T01:04:00.000-07:00

I was born for the glory of civilized man

To bring shame to big walled cities

To make sure that aggression always prevailed

The only thing, which satisfied me, was the sound of walls crumbling.

I plotted the ruin of many a great city

History wouldn’t be the same if it wasn’t for me

I celebrated when Rome rose to glory

And drank wine when she fell.

I was there when Babylon fell

When Alexander marched to Persia

When Titus took Jerusalem

I steered History my way.

I was behind the slaughter of millions

Grounded into dust the walls that gave shelter to the oppressed

Am I not more cursed that the sword or an arrow? Should I not be burnt to dust?

Does not civilization have the right to live instead of me?

The father of man should have me burnt to the ground forever

The treachery I did to man goes beyond forgiveness

I ought to be judged guilty and erased from history

But alas children embrace me and infants take pride in my achievements.

Will no one help to exterminate my kind?

Will no one ever destroy me?

For my guilt has taken over me

When will man put an end to me when will he obliterate me?

A Battle's Memory

2008-01-02T10:36:00.000-08:00

A fresh beginning, Another hope for mankind
Born in the lap of comfort
Far from all pain and misery
In warm embrace.

Living in the greatness of his fathers
And in the love of his mother
Devoid of misery and evil
That is just another day.

Like all the others one must learn wisdom
"Ignorance is Bliss" isn't that wisdom by itself
No but we must learn the ways of man
To become another one and to know thyself.

Love your enemies someone taught
Lend a helping hand every time
But if thou art so righteous O man
Why then is there suffering.

With wealth cometh comfort
Comfort seeketh pleasure and pleasure luxury
It hath place for any man worth nothing
But only with ones who are merely means.

Yea that is what man is my mind proclaimed
Dirty, filthy and beyond redemption
Not worthy of God nor pleasure
But for me and my clan we are the possessors of inheritance.

Then did my way go out of reason
Beaten by the merciless fury of fate
Hungry for a miracle for I deserved one
But doth not righteousness have its own reward.

I am blameless justified by just reason
But the enemy never stops
Till I am on the ground again
Men say I had it easy now.

The fighter is on his feet again
"Thou art glorious O man"
For you possess the wisdom of immortals
Thou art covered with the reason of the wise.

Thou canst never fail
For thou art a man
Armed with the wisdom of Reason
The warrior shouts the battle cry.

Face me O miserable enemy
Send the best that you can
Teardrops fall down as rain
As wisdom so fair departs.

As I look upon mine enemy
A wonderful man of ages
Who hath but nail pierce hands
I depart now that I know he's slain.

I turn to my ally to feast in the table of victory
Only to face the fury of his wrath
I do not fear you
For I possess the Glory Of Man.

You possess nothing he exclaims!
For the glory of man is my ally now
I look upon myself and now see
That I possess nothing.

Reason departs but I am not undone
I still possess the wisdom of the ancients
With beasts at my heels
I run with shame and pride.

Reason strikes me with the dart of vengeance
My clan look away in shame
The beasts have now bruised my heel
And wait to feast upon my flesh.

I am not set to be meat
For my ally and for the glory of man
My foolishness was my doubt he said
And the weakness of my heart.

I look for one last time and I behold
" On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross"
My spirit cried to wisdom "Lay my weary head to rest"
For I had no more tears to cry.

The wisdom that was dead outside me
Hath now come to dwell within me
I see multitudes marching to aid me
For my enemy is now my ally.

I bid my final farewell to the Glory Of Man
To the father of the foolish
For it is not I that liveth
But CHRIST who liveth in me.

AMEN